delusional

I've determined the emotion I felt when I saw that negative pregnancy test-- hope. Hope that the coin flipping around in the air made C decide that he wanted to have a baby after all. Hope that there was a reason that he bought 4 pregnancy tests, telling me "You'll use them." Hope that when he took me out to dinner last night to celebrate my loan payoff he'd say, "Hon, you've done such a good job thus far. Let's not wait anymore."

Alas, such hope was unfounded. If anything, I think it reinforced his opinion that he doesn't want to have a baby yet. So much for that.